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50​/​90 2021

by jeustan

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when you're lost in the weeds and your troubles are all there seem to be here is something to set you free darker than the darkness and sweet like honey honey, put on your 'jamas a bowl for you and me in bed, come on mama dream your sugar dreams leave your worries in the freezer or let them melt away chocolate therapy is all you need, mm hmm unwrap your kisses and your milky ways this little therapy is as good as any counseling and baby it's free when you're lonesome you got a golden ticket you never know you get until you open up that box when your heart breaks you need a little time but when you're all done crying chocolate therapy is all you need
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it's been a long time I'm feeling heavy been feeling heavier every day I want to crush the walls around you and take your pain but I know it don't work that way but maybe, mmm let's play another game the rules you can tell me I will keep time and just like birds above the Earth we own the air and although we're only talking I hear music in your words sing the truth out I'll you what I heard—- touch me, take my hand, mmm let's play another game the rules I already know but scary just the same just how long ago since I tried flying
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I'm a Square 01:52
I don't wanna smoke your weed I don't wanna smoke your crack I just wanna sit and read and watch Star Trek I'm a square I'm a square I'm a square I don't wanna swipe no hook-ups I don't wanna touch the sky baby I would rather die than let you get me high I'm a square I'm a square I'm a square some people live their lives seeking out cheap thrills people don't realize they're writing their own wills I don't wanna rock & roll I don't wanna see your holes so pull pull up your drawers and pray— Jesus come and save your soul I'm a square...
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Eaten alive by instincts. My instincts are killing me. Eaten alive by instincts. I'd have preferred the bees. My instincts keep me with the bees. My instincts and bees and me make three. My instincts might be making me bleed! My instincts, the bees, and me. Eaten alive by instincts. My instincts to survive. Eaten alive by instincts. I sacrifice for my tribe. My tribe are my bees, and they will survive. I'll tweak their genome, I'll make it combine. No fungus will kill them, they won't need to hide. My instincts, my bliss, my bees are my life. Eaten alive by instincts. Maybe not quite mine. Eaten alive by instincts. My bees are sublime.
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Plays in empty cafés Singing his truth Got an album up on Amazon But not one review Sometimes sweeps up the floor Sometimes he cries Cuz he isn’t close to making it But Lord knows he tries (Chorus) Heart and soul in every note Barely keeps his boat afloat Still hopes he’ll go higher than the moon But it doesn’t look like it’ll happen Any time soon Things could not be much worse Down on his luck Spent the winter sleeping at a Walmart In his old truck Once he had lots of friends That’s in the past Cuz he borrowed money many times And never paid back Heart and soul in every note Barely keeps his boat afloat Still hopes he’ll go higher than the moon But it doesn’t look like it’ll happen Any time soon Things aren’t getting any better But this life might go on forever Cuz he doesn’t know How to let go Of his dream Heart and soul in every note Barely keeps his boat afloat Still hopes he’ll go higher than the moon But it doesn’t look like it’ll happen Any time soon But it doesn’t look like it’ll happen Any time soon
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sun's a'shinin' clouds are hidin' bees are hivin' and divin' in that sweet summer nectar but you're inside with a syringe trying to refill disposable cartridges in your Epson NX430 printer 'cause you know, ink jet's a scam but where do dreams go when they run away? and where do they come from with each new day? you gotta get up and walk to the door give a handle a turn, common you know what to do oooh it's easy to do oooh nobody's stopping you but you. ... ... ...
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Sexx Mansion 02:47
I was on tour with the band in Indiana when we got the call. Said, "Hey, the big city show got cancelled but don't worry, you can play the show at my house." He was a weird guy with no shoes on. He only wore overalls. I said, "Is this the place?" He said, "Yeah, this is the Sexx Mansion." It was pretty big but calling it a mansion seemed like an overstatement. Also, it smelled terrible and it was the opposite of sexy. There was garbage everywhere. I thought, "What the hell is this?" I said, "You live here?" He said, "Yeah. It's just me and my dad." Sexx Man-sion The neighborhood kids had their Halloween costumes on. We saw ghouls, princesses, and Spidermen but they weren't knocking on this door. Our singer was brave enough to go upstairs and use the bathroom where she said she saw a dog grooming kit left with human hair on it. Then he showed us the venue downstairs where the house kit was in shambles with beat up skins, broken cymbals, and the floor was covered in Kroger coupons. The drummer said, "Let's go smoke," so we went outside. Mr. Overalls came up and said, "Hey, uh, you know, that stuff is illegal so why don't you do that inside the shed." I said, "You mean the Sexx Shed?" But he didn't think that was very funny. We went in there and he shut the door behind us. It was darker than the inside of a goat. I said, "I don't wanna die! Don't kill me! I'm still a virgin!" Sexx Man-sion Now this was clearly no Love Shack, however, neither was CBGB's, so we agreed to play the show as long as everyone kept their clothes on and you know, people came together that night. There were goths, hipsters, rap heads, metal heads, you name it. Everybody was there for the music and the community at the Sexx Mansion. Mr. Overalls stayed upstairs all night, though. Maybe he was grooming his werewolf dad or something. I never got to thank him for the hospitality. Thank you. Thank you Sexx Mansion. Sexx Man-sion Sexx Man-sion

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released July 9, 2021

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